getting real. Melanie Chisholmalso known as Mel C, she opened up about the experience of being sexually assaulted before her first full-length live performance with the Spice Girls in 1997.
“We were in Istanbul, we did two shows there and we had never done a full-length concert before, so obviously we had rehearsed for weeks, costume fittings, makeup here,” Chisholm, 48, wrote in her forthcoming memoir, Who am I: my story, for him daily mail. “It was all leading up to the pinnacle of everything I ever wanted to do and ever wanted to be.”
She continued, “And what happened to me I buried right away because there were other things to focus on. He didn’t want to make a fuss, but he didn’t have time to deal with it either. Since I didn’t deal with it at the time, I realize I allowed that to lie buried for years and years and years.”
The pop star, known to fans as Sporty Spice, was 23 years old when the incident occurred. She shared that although the act of violence “affected” her, she buried the problem because she was “in an environment where you take off your clothes with this professional”, which seems to imply that the person who assaulted her worked in the entertainment industry.
The England native explained that the process of writing her autobiography helped her wake up to the experience, before deciding it was “really important for me to come out and finally deal with” what happened.
“I guess in a sexual assault version it’s a mild version, but I felt violated,” she shared. “I felt very vulnerable. I felt embarrassed, and then I felt insecure: ‘Have I got it right, what’s going on?’”
Chisholm further opened up about the struggles she faced as a member of the Spice Girls during a Wednesday, September 14 episode of the “How to Fail” podcast, revealing that she still deals with mental health issues to this day.
“Even now, in 2022, I live with depression. You know, it’s there. I’ve learned a lot about how to deal with it and cope with it and keep it at bay, but sometimes it can get the best of me,” he said. world of spices star, who is also in recovery from bulimia and anorexia, shared. “So I think it’s very important to learn what works for you. I think everyone can have different little tools in the kit to achieve that.”
While the “Wannabe” singer said she “wouldn’t change” living life in the spotlight, she wishes she had “done it differently.”
“I am a warrior. I was fighting and, in my eyes, I failed. I failed myself, I failed the public, but I got over it. I came through the other side. My story is that I succumbed to these things and felt shame about it, but what I feel very proud of is that I overcame all those things,” she explained.
Who am I: my story It will premiere on Thursday, September 15.
If you or someone you know has been sexually assaulted, please contact the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673).